December 11, 2014

When You're Feeling Down

I mentioned in my post yesterday about how emotional I've been feeling lately. I'm sure it is just related to pregnancy, but oh boy, is it hard to deal with being okay one minute to miserable, angry, or depressed the next.

I don't like sharing negative thoughts or being a debbie downer on the blog, but I have the need to get this out, on virtual "paper" in case anyone else is feeling this way too. There are so many bloggers who are pregnant right now and I love reading how everyone is doing- I'm sure this post will be welcome too.

To be perfectly honest, I'm a mess. I feel all out of sorts, rarely like myself most days. I'm cranky, irritable, sad, and lonely- mostly because my husband's schedule has been crazy for the past few weeks. He's also been sick constantly, just like Miss A, so when he is home, he's recuperating from work and can't seem to get better before getting sick again. I'm losing sympathy, as much as I hate to admit it and I probably sound really selfish (I feel very selfish), I just want him to get better so I can escape to my room, shut the door, and read the pile of magazines I've been accumulating. I need a Mommy break.

I always knew residency was going to be hard, but oh my god, it is a different ball game while pregnant and taking care of a toddler all day. I know I'm not "alone", I know I'm not a single parent, yet I feel that way most days. I feel like everything is always weighing on my shoulders. The stupid things, that shouldn't matter, like taking care of the house, get to me when I see clutter strewn all about, clothes that have been sitting in the laundry basket for days waiting to be put away. Figuring out what to make for dinner every night because I feel guilty if it's not something wholesome and healthy.

I know this is not forever and that this "season" of our lives will pass. We will get through this. I can't wait to meet our little boy and see Miss A in her role of big sister. I know she's going to be amazing and so helpful. She already loves babies. The aftermath freaks me out too- taking care of two, on my own, most of the time. Let's pray I don't lose my sanity!

I can't end this post on such a sad note, so I'll tell you a bit about our day. We had our playgroup Christmas party today and decorated cookies, made ornaments, and exchanged gifts with our Secret Santa's. I love, love that we're at an age that Miss A is excited about ALL these things. She was like an old pro tearing into her present, Christmas is going to be SO much fun I can't hardly stand the wait. These distractions are exactly what I need, thank goodness for mom friends who are going through similar situations- three of us are pregnant right now.

If you've stuck with me, thanks for reading. I hope to not post depressing thoughts again for a long time.

December 10, 2014

Baby #2- Weeks 23, 24, & 25

I'm an emotional roller coaster these days. Some days I'm perfectly fine, happy, cheery, and others I feel like I could cry at the drop of a hat. I kind of feel like a crazy person! I didn't feel like this with Miss A, and to be honest it kind of sucks. I miss feeling like myself.

I haven't been able to keep up with the blog; there are so many other things that I have to take care of throughout the day that by the time the evening rolls around I'm too exhausted to sit write a coherent post. I've wanted to share a bump update for weeks now!

I'm 25 weeks and feeling pretty good, physically at least! Although I'm exhausted by the end of the day, that doesn't surprise me. My back aches, and so do my feet! I look forward to sitting on the couch with my feet propped up once Miss A is in bed. 

There are some days where I'm absolutely starving. One breakfast, one lunch, won't cut it. If we're up early, I have to have something else to eat around 10:00. Sometimes I'll be starving again a little while after lunch and having a snack won't be enough. It's crazy, I can't believe how much I eat some days and I've also got a massive sweet tooth going on, which I had at this point with Miss A too! It's funny how different yet how similar these pregnancies have been.

I know I run on the small side belly wise, but trust me, I'm gaining weight, much faster than I would like. It's not all belly this time around...but we won't talk about that. :) I'm already itching for when I can shed the weight, though it's sure going to be different with a toddler and baby to care for.

We've ordered some of the nursery furniture and I'm SO excited to start working on it. The dresser came yesterday, my mom is gifting us most of the nursery bedding, and soon I'll start looking for decor. We've settled on a theme that we're both excited about and I'll share more once we get working on the nursery. I'm blessed to have my mom and mother-in-law who insisted on throwing me another shower, which will be in two weeks, when we are back home visiting for Christmas. I can't wait! 

December 3, 2014

Our Thanksgiving Weekend

Are you still dreaming about your Thanksgiving feast? I know I am. All my prep work, picking out recipes, and stressing over which pies to make was so worth it. I'm seriously thinking about making it all again, it was so good. Except maybe the twelve pound turkey. That would be too much for just the three of us. :)

The day started off smoothly. My in laws arrived the night before, Miss A was so chill about them being here, as if she knew all along they were coming. She was a very happy girl receiving all that extra attention. We ate cinnamon rolls for breakfast, lounged around in piles of blankets watching the parade, until it was time to prep the turkey.

I tried out a new brine this year that I really think made all the difference. I used the same recipe that I've used for the last six years to prep the turkey, none other than Paula Dean's. I also make the cranberry sauce in that recipe- SO good, so perfect with the leftover turkey sandwiches we had the next day.

My only disappointment- Miss A was coming down with something, as she had a slight fever the day before and I could tell she wasn't feeling well despite trying to ignore it and have fun with her grandparents and aunts. She wasn't interested in the food at all, not even the cinnamon buttered rolls! I think the only thing she really wanted to eat was the chocolate pie.

The rest of the night was spent huddled next to the fire (as our heat decided to stop working, we still have no heat!) and played an intense game of Candyland, Mario Kart, and attempted to watch a movie, that I can't recall as I fell asleep!

Friday morning we woke up to a freezing house and a sick toddler. :( We didn't do very much, until Saturday when we ventured out to find a Christmas tree. We went to a cute farm that had hot chocolate and mini donuts.

We have yet to decorate our tree, as Miss A hasn't shown much interest while being sick and the hubby has been working. Hopefully today we can get it done! I'm really looking forward to the next few weeks and doing lots of Christmas related activities with a (hopefully) sick-free toddler. In just a few weeks we'll be back with our families and I can't wait! I know I'm due for a baby post- I'm 24 weeks, six months already! Be on the lookout for one soon.

November 18, 2014

My Favorite Things- A Christmas Wishlist!

It's funny- when I sat down to think about what I'd want for Christmas, at first I couldn't think of anything but some new pajamas. So much of my attention has been on figuring out what I'd like Miss A to get that I completely forgot about myself. Putting this together was a lot of fun and I thought back to a recent trip to Ulta I took, all alone, just to browse for inspiration. My wishlist this year is a mixture of things I want and would like to update, like my makeup!

My Favorite Things

One. I've had the same eyeshadows for a long time now, most of them from the drugstore or Target. I'd love a new palette to play with and the Too Faced Chocolate Bar one is not only beautiful, but it smells like chocolate! It has great reviews and I love all the colors. 

Two. A classic Old Navy vest. I have one in gold from a few years back. I love how easy they are to throw on and add an extra layer of warmth. A red vest would be the perfect addition to my mostly gray and black winter wardrobe. 

Three. Okay, I have a bit of an obsession when it comes to Bath & Body Works holiday socks. I get a new pair every year and they are my favorite socks to wear once it's cold out. So comfy and they're always so cute!

Four. Pajamas...just because, I also love pajamas and look forward to getting a new set every year for Christmas. You can't go wrong with a set from Victoria Secret!

Five. The infamous blanket scarf...from Target! I love it as much as everyone else does and you can never have enough scarfs! 

Six. I'd love a new blush and I've heard great things about Tarte, a brand I've never tried. All the colors are gorgeous and I had a hard time narrowing one down, hopefully this warm one will be good for my complexion.

Be sure to link up your Christmas list!

November 17, 2014

Prepping for Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is less than two weeks away! I can't believe it. Honestly all I've got is Christmas on the brain because I know it's going to be SO much fun this year and I'm dying to get our tree and stick beautifully wrapped presents under it. Buttt we do have to give Thanksgiving the attention it deserves and that's what I was doing all weekend. Planning the menu, picking out what desserts to make, etc. 

Another thing I like doing for Thanksgiving is decorating our table. Unfortunately we don't have a large table. It's large enough for six people to sit comfortably, but the small space I have in the center doesn't leave me very much room for decorating. So I usually keep it simple. This year I'm thinking of making little autumn trees with Miss A and gluing on some leaves we have pressed in books at the moment. Hopefully it turns out the way I have it planned out in my head! 

Thanksgiving last year, I can't believe how much she has grown! Time slow down please.

I also like to think about what I'm going to wear that day. Something comfortable and with room for the belly to grow (not to mention the belly I have this year) is what I usually come up with. It's always cold so I wear a sweater type top and that'll probably be the case this year too. I've already got a gray dress for Miss A and I'm probably wear gray too so we can match. :)

As for our menu, I always want to keep it simple but then I find so many things I want to make that it's always the last thing from simple. I'm going to try out a new brine this year, my traditional sweet potatoes, mac and cheese, a brussel sprouts salad, stuffing, and dinner rolls. For dessert I'm still in between a pecan pie and a chocolate pie and I also think it'll be really cute to make turkey cookies with Miss A. So. I have my work cut out for me but hopeful with enough prep ahead of time I can enjoy the actual day!